Its friday, my exam is on monday... i have typed any essays but 2 which aren't important as i'll probably not remember the crap thats in them. I've read up for i think 4 essays which would be good, if only i wasn't so bloody tired and in pain... i'm falling a sleep and oh yah my computer is chucking a fit!!!
dAMN MALES!!! y can't they suffer as we females have to do????
I need to get my motivation levels up before next semester and also I need to learn how to study again cause i have completely lost by ability to do so... i know how weird it sounds but its a very real problem for me...
man, i should be studying instead of doin this... but i just can't keep my eyes open and if i can, its just barely!!!
well... all that typeing of all the bad and scary things were freaking me out but now i'm nice and calm again after writing a plan... thinking of taking the morning and some of the afternoon off... and then reading ...
Hehe, i have the most darling parents *mwah* i just love them to pieces. Thank you god for them *mwah*. and its such a beautiful day, i hope this lasts till monday. Sweet dreams... i'm off to procrastinate!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
My first entry...
I've been wanting to do this for yonks!!! I have heaps of books around my house that contain pieces of me, but i never seem to be able to keep it up or find the book or have the book wen i want it, so i'm giving blogging a try....
I realise this is goin to be random and erratic and i'll probably never let anyone read it cause knowing me and wen i'm down or in a bad mood, it will get dark and depressing and i know that people can't handle that unless they themselves are detached... in which cause its pointless for me.
Tomorrow i have to wake early and STUDY. I HAVE TO MAKE MYSELF TO DO IT... my exam is in 4 days.... and i, myself have detached from the situation and can no longer feel or stress or feel real but i know that my anxiety will hit me and i'll feel crap and this stupid state my psyci is in will collapse and i'll be freaks.... yes knowing or thinking of what i have to expect in relation to a form of breakdown scares me.... who knows, maybe writing this blog will help me unclutter my head or may be in the future, i can look back and see the person i was.... like i wish i could see the person i was wen i rememeber in general been happy and content... i wish i had a record of that person, i wish i could remember that person properally and meet, even be that person again, a person who isn't alone....
Sweet dreams, *mwah*
V
I realise this is goin to be random and erratic and i'll probably never let anyone read it cause knowing me and wen i'm down or in a bad mood, it will get dark and depressing and i know that people can't handle that unless they themselves are detached... in which cause its pointless for me.
Tomorrow i have to wake early and STUDY. I HAVE TO MAKE MYSELF TO DO IT... my exam is in 4 days.... and i, myself have detached from the situation and can no longer feel or stress or feel real but i know that my anxiety will hit me and i'll feel crap and this stupid state my psyci is in will collapse and i'll be freaks.... yes knowing or thinking of what i have to expect in relation to a form of breakdown scares me.... who knows, maybe writing this blog will help me unclutter my head or may be in the future, i can look back and see the person i was.... like i wish i could see the person i was wen i rememeber in general been happy and content... i wish i had a record of that person, i wish i could remember that person properally and meet, even be that person again, a person who isn't alone....
Sweet dreams, *mwah*
V
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